~* forever *~

i always have alot that i want to blog about,things that i saw or happen.But when i really do sign in, nothing really comes out. Either those things happened like "million years" ago, or i simply did too much filtering till there are nothing much else left to say. Same thing is happening again.

Well, something did happen that i can still remember at least. I witness an argument between a prof and a post-doc! It was interesting to know what the postodc was unhappy about, how others kept themselves looking busy during the whole arguement and how me myself fake ignorance even though i was sitting just beside the post doc and i can hear every single comment he makes, which the prof may not be able to hear. Half the time i was thinking, what a suay day cause im doing a presentation later and this post doc is actually not helping by making the prof angry. You see, usually the more unhappy the prof is, the more question you will get from him during the presentation. But well, very unexpectedly, the presentation went rather good! Not much questions asked and the prof really looks like he is in a good mood if i didnt know he had such a heated arguement beforehand. But then again, he was just nice towards the rest of us, not towards the post doc though. Last Saturday when i went back for meeting, the two of them seems fine again though. Males really "make-up" so fast or is that just superficial? Hmmz, whatever, i can never think like a guy anyway. Haha. =P

Heard more about other things too. So much about office politics, that happens in school too mind you! Life is really not the same now as compared to university years, let me say that once more. There are problems to solve just like those in office, probably only DIFFERENT problems and not NO problems? Sometimes i think working people should just stop thinking that graduate students are having a "better" life than those who are working. Those working tends to say " wait till you started working!" or anything along the line. I seriously hated those words, especially if that came from someone of the same level. It seems to me that these people feel that they are much more superior than we are! Really, graduate students are also working, even though we are still termed as "students". "Students" are not really students, if you know what i mean.

Ok, i think i shouldnt continue to say things that will affect my mood(or maybe yours too) further. Well, once again, im looking forward to CNY!! I cant really tell why im so excited over CNY every year. Not sure if it's cos is CNY or because im ~mostly~ overseas during CNY. Most people are excited cos they will get ang baos, but for me, the ang baos that i get every year are just those from my parents and maybe 2-3 more from my aunties and thats all! So ya, my ya sui qian is really very minimal every CNY. Hmmz, i guess im too used to not having too many ang baos already. Its been years since i go for home-visiting during CNY. Even if im not overseas, the two homes that i visit are only that of my paternal and maternal grandparents. But since all my grandparents are not around anymore, the number of homes i visit has been reduced to one. So why am i saying this? Hmmz, well, at least im trying to show that im not excited over CNY cos of the ang baos? Haha, as if anyone cares~!

Alright, that's it for now! One post is so so easy to complete! Just abit of ramblings and pointless thoughts and im done! =)

Happy CNY everyone!! =D

WORDS

一望即逝的烟火
象征着我们
我喜欢的是青色还是红色
你有在乎吗？

因为有依赖
所以最伤心
听说你也难过
但你不曾挽留

你认为
叫我把棉被盖好
就是一种安慰
但你曾想过
你说完掉头就走
却是更残忍的伤害

相信我
忘记也许更容易
其实并没有讨厌
不能怪你的无助
你知道吗？

希望以后再遇见
我们只是陌生人

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

曾经以为
一切都不会改变
怎么说散就散
一点预兆都不给

是因为他吗
还是我没搞清楚
你怎会说走就走
连一句话也没留

是我太慢太傻
还是有些事根本不必说
是无所不谈吗
怎么会差了你我

是你太傻太慢
还是根本没想过
所以就算无所不谈
还是缺了你我

如果有一天
你突然想起我
请记得
我曾经给过你微笑