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realise it's been long since i blogged..so thot i will come by and write something..

have been slacking for the past few days..doing nth constructive except watching tw dramas..suddenly felt abit sian after fyp report submission..i must be crazy rite..i bet alot of pp are more than happy to get over with fyp...hmmz..probably cos after fyp submission..it seems like there is nth i can think abt..no datelines to meet..no aims..everyday slack at home..so pointless...

well..of all the dramas that i have been watching these few days/weeks..except for making me feel seriously pointless..it also sets me thinking..so wat do i want to achieve in the future? wat kind of job do i want? wats the kind of life do i want to lead? erm..actually all these i have thot of it b4..jus tat...in the past..im still a student..and all i have to do is to jus continue studying from sem to sem..whatever tat needs to be thot of can be left to the future..so well..here i am..at my last sem in uni..the last sem b4 i step out to the society..seriously..im clueless..and somemore..of all the dramas tat i watch..those pp in the shows all have their aims in live..like in "it started with a kiss"..the girl's aim is to make the guy fall in love wif her..in "they kiss again"..she want to be a nurse so tat she can help her husband who is a doctor..in "wish to see u again"..the guy left his father's company cos he felt tat he wont "grow" as a leader in his career..n also to find out if management is realli the kind of career tat he wants..n many many more..hmmz...me? ehh..i realli dunno leh..seriously...is everyone like them or is everyone like me? hmmz..

so far..there isnt any major setbacks in my life..everything went smoothly.. regardless it's my family matters or my results..all came like the way it shld..of cos im not saying that i rather they dun go smoothly la (choy! i still wan my final results to be veri good ok! please...)..but jus tat i think..its also becos everything went smoothly tat i dun realli haf to work veri hard for the things tat i wan.. but come to think of it..are there things tat i realli wan but couldnt get so that i have to work veri hard for it? do u? or izzit jus me? y izzit that there isnt anything tat i think i must have and must work hard to get it? suddenly feel so aimless...haiz..

i wonder if it's cos i watch too much dramas..dramas are meant to be..dramatic..so i guess everyone is the same as me? hmmmz...

sometimes i hope...im a naive person..someone hu dun think alot..someone hu thinks tat as long as i wan to do it..i will do it..n regardless of the consequence..i wont regret doing it...thinking back..actually there r alot of things tat i want to do or say...but in the end didnt cos im afraid of this or tat...cos i will think of the consequences b4 doing anything...n i have no confidence tat it will go the way i think will go...maybe if i were to jus do it..i may not be thinking tat im leading an aimless life now? hmmz...

sometimes...i think im realli an aquarian..haha..cos like wat i watch over the variety show the other time..after something has happened to the aquarian's life..she will still be able to get over it n continue wif live..however...if someone were to mention abt that incident again in the future..there will still be alot of things abt it tat the aquarian can comment and get affected by it..haha..so funny..

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叶子是不会飞翔的翅膀
翅膀是落在天上的叶子
天堂原来应该不是妄想
只是我早已经遗忘
当初怎么开始飞翔

孤单是一个人的狂欢
狂欢是一群人的孤单
爱情原来的开始是陪伴
但我也渐渐地遗忘
当时是怎样有人陪伴

我一个人吃饭旅行到处走走停停
也一个人看书写信自己对话谈心
只是心又飘到了哪里
就连自己看也看不清
我想我不仅仅是失去你

WORDS

一望即逝的烟火
象征着我们
我喜欢的是青色还是红色
你有在乎吗？

因为有依赖
所以最伤心
听说你也难过
但你不曾挽留

你认为
叫我把棉被盖好
就是一种安慰
但你曾想过
你说完掉头就走
却是更残忍的伤害

相信我
忘记也许更容易
其实并没有讨厌
不能怪你的无助
你知道吗？

希望以后再遇见
我们只是陌生人

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曾经以为
一切都不会改变
怎么说散就散
一点预兆都不给

是因为他吗
还是我没搞清楚
你怎会说走就走
连一句话也没留

是我太慢太傻
还是有些事根本不必说
是无所不谈吗
怎么会差了你我

是你太傻太慢
还是根本没想过
所以就算无所不谈
还是缺了你我

如果有一天
你突然想起我
请记得
我曾经给过你微笑