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my 1st day as a 23-year-old....

1) went to the phd talk...the dean makes it snd like we will DEFINATELY get it as long as we apply...got tat easy meh...but well..phd talk..a path to a "career" after graduation..a gd sign huh..somemore..a phd gets a much higher pay then the rest..even though tat will onli happen after i got the phd which is like 4-5 yrs later..haiz..is research realli wat i want?? i used to think i will continue wif phd after graduation..but immediately pushed off the idea after IA and the current FYP...but after listening to the talk..im so excited abt it again! so does it mean tat i actually really wan to be a researcher but jus so happened tat i didnt join the correct company for IA and continued FYP there and with a wrong professor somemore?? decision to make......

2) got a surprised gift fm a fren today...so sweet of her..esp when i din expect it AT ALL.. =)

3) got bday wishes fm unexpected pp...stunned they remembered..afterall we din c each other and din even contact each other for so long..fm mths to yrs...sometimes a simple bday wish will jus show how u treat the friendship ba...esp to those whom u din contact for a veri long time but they still managed to rem ur bday...im guilty for actually NOT knowing when their bday is though...but im seriously touched tat they rem n actually make the effort to sms me..some on the dot at 12am while some on the day itself..im not someone hu realli take bday as a veri big occassion...but its interesting to c how ur frenz respond to it..n probably make some unclear things clear...for eg...after today...i know tat someone whom i actually still wanna considered as a fren..will no longer be termed as my fren...i din say this jus cos this person din wish me for my bday of cos..but also because even while in sch..this person din even bother to say hi when we walked pass each other..initially i still give the benefit of doubt...but well...im correct la...we r no longer frenz..in fact...im not sure if this person got called up to join my bday celebration...but i seriously hope this person doesnt turn up...im serious...i dun like/wan fake friendship ...to join jus cos u were being asked to...n cos u r free or happened to be convinient to join the celebration den u came..FORGET IT...jus count myself unlucky for wasting my time on u in the past to build up the friendship then.....

4) spend the day with a group of not-so-close frenz...in fact...onli noe them in yr 4..weird rite...anyway...they r actually meeting up in order to celebrate another person's bday..her bday falls on 5th feb..but i was being asked to join so tat they can celebrate for me too..onli settled this this afternoon when i m gg home fm sch..den later met them up for dinner..well..it ended up being a fun and interesting celebration! luck was on me today cos i managed to win the "competition" to eat the smallest piece of cake..so heng! anyway initially i thot the cake was bought for the other girl..den i realised they bought it esp for me cos their plan was to buy cake for the other girl on mon...anyway they bought cake for me n even billed for my food! at least i got a bday celebration on my actual bday..haha..

5) oh..i also got another surprised gift on 30th jan..thru snail mail..intersting rite..so stunned once again...

not in a gd mood today though..at least when i started writing this post...now past 12am le! a brand new day! i mus be happy!! =)

WORDS

一望即逝的烟火
象征着我们
我喜欢的是青色还是红色
你有在乎吗？

因为有依赖
所以最伤心
听说你也难过
但你不曾挽留

你认为
叫我把棉被盖好
就是一种安慰
但你曾想过
你说完掉头就走
却是更残忍的伤害

相信我
忘记也许更容易
其实并没有讨厌
不能怪你的无助
你知道吗？

希望以后再遇见
我们只是陌生人

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曾经以为
一切都不会改变
怎么说散就散
一点预兆都不给

是因为他吗
还是我没搞清楚
你怎会说走就走
连一句话也没留

是我太慢太傻
还是有些事根本不必说
是无所不谈吗
怎么会差了你我

是你太傻太慢
还是根本没想过
所以就算无所不谈
还是缺了你我

如果有一天
你突然想起我
请记得
我曾经给过你微笑