~* forever *~

happy birthday RH!! hahaha...wrote this blog cos its ur bday ok...so be honoured..hahaha...ok...i noe i forgot to wish u when the clock strikes 12am last night...but u c...my clock got no ding-dong-ding-dong signal one..so i din noe it strikes 12am?...hahaha..crapz..wat am i toking abt? sorry tat i forgot la! i was too tired last nite...cos the nite b4 i onli slept like 2hrs..became abit sei last nite... heeeee...but anyway...hope u haf enjoyed urself on this EXCEPTIONALLY special day!!!~ heh heh....

basically..my mind is in a state of luan-ness now...no specific idea of wat to write...dun even noe wat im thinking...no logic in my brain at all currently..

like wat my msn nick says now...everyone is different...so dun even try to understand all of them...even if u think "i realli understand the person lo...i noe exactly wat his/her reaction is if i say this..blah blah blah.."...NEVER say it out to anyone...jus keep this to urself FIRST..cos eventually..there will be times when u will start to doubt urself...cos tat fren who u claim to understand so much..might not be exactly who u think he/she is...

was having a small "debate" wif a fren today...if everyone has the same character as urself ..will the world be more peaceful or it will be more chaotic???

to me...it will be more chaotic...cos the things tat u jian chi on will also be a jian chi for the other person...there will not be any agreement on tat specific thing cos both of u will be as stubborn...u will jus end up fighting wif the other person cos both of u will be as hot tempered or as short tempered...

however...my fren thinks otherwise...things tat dun realli dun bother u...the other person will not be bothered too...an agreement will be reached more easily as both are as easy-gg as each other...end up...there will be WORLD PEACE...

hmmmz...well...i wont say he is wrong...but neither do i agree...both haf some sense if u realli think abt it...we end up saying this to each other..."i dun understand u..."...hahaha..yupz...proves my pt....everyone is different...even such a small debate we can c the differences...so dun ever say u understand...even ur closest fren...

well well...away fm all the differences tat i said so far....

had a very weird dream jus now while i was taking a nap...somehow this dream felt different fm the other dreams i can b4...such a friendship shld be a veri heart-warming one if it realli exist...i dun wan any differences bet the reality n a dream for this..hahaha...but den...to face reality...things always turn out to be otherwise for me one..so...i think i shld jus forget abt the whole thing....haiz...

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i dun like pp to force anything on me...i agree im stubborn...i hold on to my mindset as long as i think its not wrong...u can say im self centered...maybe i realli am...has always been saying tat im a nice person...but well...i admit...im actually not...i say tat for the fun of it...if u take exactly wat i say as the truth...den im sorry...all i can say u trust me too much n tat i din meet up to ur expectations...i haf the stubborn side of me...the irritating side of me...the kiam pa side of me...n the list goes on....not asking everyone to acommodate me..but at least know tat im liddat...im definately not perfect...

i dunno a person can be so pissed off with something which everyone thinks its ok...its not as if we r mocking u or wat...its a jus a friendly msg wif a concerned qn...y understand it as an extreme qn?? we noe u r liddat...but sometimes realli cant stand it....y mus we always pamper u??? when u r unhappy...we r like strangers...n when u r happy..we r friends back again...wats the meaning of this?? n seriously this time...its not even serious....it NTH lo... n if u think we shldnt be liddat (which i dun understand wat we did wrong...)...den tell us la...fu yan an ans is not gg to help in anything lo....urgh!

i din noe everyone is so concerned over my future...hahahaha....find it funny... told my fren today...not ALL gd pp MUST get tog ok...find tat its a lame excuse/reason...cos i think all my frenz r gd n nice pp..so..does it mean tat all my frenz shld get tog?! wouldnt tat become abit chaotic?? hahaha...

finally...expect the least to gain the greatest sense of achievement... =)

WORDS

一望即逝的烟火
象征着我们
我喜欢的是青色还是红色
你有在乎吗？

因为有依赖
所以最伤心
听说你也难过
但你不曾挽留

你认为
叫我把棉被盖好
就是一种安慰
但你曾想过
你说完掉头就走
却是更残忍的伤害

相信我
忘记也许更容易
其实并没有讨厌
不能怪你的无助
你知道吗？

希望以后再遇见
我们只是陌生人

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曾经以为
一切都不会改变
怎么说散就散
一点预兆都不给

是因为他吗
还是我没搞清楚
你怎会说走就走
连一句话也没留

是我太慢太傻
还是有些事根本不必说
是无所不谈吗
怎么会差了你我

是你太傻太慢
还是根本没想过
所以就算无所不谈
还是缺了你我

如果有一天
你突然想起我
请记得
我曾经给过你微笑