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after reading "ah da"'s(hahahha!!) blog...i think i shld write something too...

well..i wasnt too stunned by the stories(in fact...somehow i noe its gg to happen...for the 1st story la...)..jus find it funny tat all the initials look so familiar n i actually noe eveyone hu are involved..hahaha...

i was once adviced by ah da tat i shld keep a distance fm guy frenz so tat i wont scare other guys away...in her opinion...its like....if u r too close to a guy fren...other guys hu MIGHT be interested in u may jus think tat u r attached already den dun dare to approach u....well...

maybe…maybe not...

n besides tat...u will jus get super affected if anything happens bet u n tat guy fren....when the friendship breaks or wat...or wif wat others say abt u…

true...but depends..

to me...i like being close frenz wif guys..this doesnt mean tat i dun like being close to female frenz ok...i think almost everyone noe the "famous 5" - MOUTHIANS...hahaha...n also my female MSE quartet (i named this myself actually..hahaha...fm now on we shall be called this..u all shld noe hu u r la hor..hahaha...) ok..back to the topic..erm..ya..i like being close frenz wif guys cos they provide me wif the guy's pt of view...they seem more readily available if i ever needed to talk or ask them qns or go out instantly if i ever feel like it....i dun realli haf to care tat much abt how they feel if lets say im not in a gd mood (if u noe wat i mean..)...i can jus keep my mouth shut n no qns will be asked kind...

n i dun realli c the prob wif letting everyone noe tat we r close...i mean they may haf their own speculations abt our "r/s"...but at least we r guan ming zheng da kind...i dun c y mus keep a dist fm each other jus cos other frenz r arnd leh...n somemore i seriously wont acknowledge any guy as close frenz if they ever wanna keep a dist fm me in sch or wat...no matter how close or how many secrets we share b4...cos to me tat is like tou tou mo mo...

i used to haf a guy fren...we r super close online...initiate me every nite...talk until super late at night...sms each other…met out to study tog somemore...jus the 2 of us...but in sch..we r like strangers? dun even talk one single sentence sometimes... maybe we r sitted too far apart ba..i dunno la...but i jus dun like this feeling lo..is like..we r realli close wat..y cannot let other pp noe? got ask him y liddat n he say dunno y...so anyway after tat...i think i subconsciously drifted apart fm him le...n esp after we graduated..we dun contact each other anymore le...hmmz..kind of sad huh...but well...i think tats me lo...i like everything (EXCEPT a r/s..)to be open for everyone to c...at least i can say " i think everyone noes we r jus close frenz lo..."…something liddat…

n seriously its not as if i will sit super close to my guy close fren or have any hanky-panky actions wif him (puke!)...i still suan him n scold him like i will do to any other guy frenz lo...jus probably cos we r closer den i will noe more things abt him onli ma...i dun c anything wrong wif understanding him more than others n maybe noe his whereabouts more than other frenz lo.. n also seriously.. i din ask/force him to tell me where he is gg..or ask him to sms me everyday..or ask him talk to me everyday lo..i admit guys hu do tat will tend to be closer to me obviously..but this is like a 2 way kind of thing..i wont stop wat he wanna do..we r afterall jus frenz wat…he is free to do wat he likes n im free to do mine ma..so if he happened to tell me where he is n someone else happened to ask me cos they can c tat we r quite close..den I cant jus act as if I dunno right…

basically..i think many pp r jus too particular abt the term “close frens” bet opp gender…erm…of cos..i haf to admit tat sometimes i will also think…how come the 2 of them so close huh? they like each other izzit? but well…if they were to tell me tat they r jus close frenz i will accept one lo…unless of cos..their actions tell otherwise la..

but well…i haf to say tat probably diff pp deal wif things differently..obviously my way of doing things might not be accepted by all…im also not saying tat pp hu disagrees wif me r doing the wrong things..humans jus like to use their own standards n perspectives to look at things…no one has any control over tat…i guess everyone jus haf to be open to accept everything else tat seem to be foreign to them… =)

WORDS

一望即逝的烟火
象征着我们
我喜欢的是青色还是红色
你有在乎吗？

因为有依赖
所以最伤心
听说你也难过
但你不曾挽留

你认为
叫我把棉被盖好
就是一种安慰
但你曾想过
你说完掉头就走
却是更残忍的伤害

相信我
忘记也许更容易
其实并没有讨厌
不能怪你的无助
你知道吗？

希望以后再遇见
我们只是陌生人

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曾经以为
一切都不会改变
怎么说散就散
一点预兆都不给

是因为他吗
还是我没搞清楚
你怎会说走就走
连一句话也没留

是我太慢太傻
还是有些事根本不必说
是无所不谈吗
怎么会差了你我

是你太傻太慢
还是根本没想过
所以就算无所不谈
还是缺了你我

如果有一天
你突然想起我
请记得
我曾经给过你微笑