~* forever *~

wah...long time since i last blogged..hahah...miss me rite..can c so...so many pp ask me to update!! hahah...

ehh...actually i also dunno wat i can write on leh...

hmmz....nth much interesting happened recently...a scary hipcup maybe? hahhaa..unreal rather...something to be happy abt? or not? hmmz..dun haf much feeling abt it though...no extreme one at least...wont wan to be in the same situation again...feel uneasy ba...i dunno how pp can actually like it!! hahahha...ok..im weird...

sometimes i think...how difficult is it to be a gd fren?? is a gd fren merely by name..like...he/she is my gd fren cos we always hang out tog...go out tog...always seen tog...can craps n play till veri high kind?
NO! at least to me its not.. my defination of a gd fren is..
one whom i can confide to and one hu will confide to me when either one of us needs it...
one whom i thot of immediately when i feel like talking or i haf problems..
one who will ask me things abt me rather than jus talking abt themselves...
one who is not afraid to let me noe things n trust me in telling me their things...
one whom either of us will confront the other party when we r unhappy abt something the other person had said/did...rather than jus keeping things to themselves..
one who share the same interest as me..
one who can at least show some concern even though they may not be very interested abt the topic im taking abt...
basically...to me..a gd fren is one who i can c n feel tat u r sincere n r concern abt me..as a fren..as easy as tat...not too hard to achieve isnt it?

but well...life is not as easy as tat...u don go around confiding to all ur frenz...likewise..u dun go around showing ur concern....tat is y there is so called whether u "clique" with the person or not...u may noe a person for a few yrs...yet u dun even noe hu the person is deep inside..u dun feel comfortable talking to him..sometimes u dun even noe wat to say! but there r also times when u onli noe that person for a few hrs/mins...n u can talk to that person as if u 2 noe each other for a few yrs! how amazing is tat....

friendship is a magical thing...i may be unfeeling n seem(or something say until as if i ) heck care...but i noe wat r frenz for...its not easy to be close to me..but its not that hard either...once i trust u..dun ever break it...cos once broken...tats it..im not someone hu expresses my feelings well..but i will still try to savour friendships tat are/seem broken..in my own way....when pp confide in me...i dun keep saying jokes or crap jus to make them laugh n hopefully they will forget abt it..maybe some pp prefers this way...but i dun..i would rather make them say out everything...let them hear wat the third party thinks of it..n slowly let them understand the situation better..diff pp haf diff way of consoling others...u make not like the way i do it..but its not the "wrong" way of consoling pp..

frenz come n go...some frenz u rather not haf it..others u wan to keep it forever..but not everything goes the way u want it..hu can haf a say in this?

WORDS

一望即逝的烟火
象征着我们
我喜欢的是青色还是红色
你有在乎吗？

因为有依赖
所以最伤心
听说你也难过
但你不曾挽留

你认为
叫我把棉被盖好
就是一种安慰
但你曾想过
你说完掉头就走
却是更残忍的伤害

相信我
忘记也许更容易
其实并没有讨厌
不能怪你的无助
你知道吗？

希望以后再遇见
我们只是陌生人

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曾经以为
一切都不会改变
怎么说散就散
一点预兆都不给

是因为他吗
还是我没搞清楚
你怎会说走就走
连一句话也没留

是我太慢太傻
还是有些事根本不必说
是无所不谈吗
怎么会差了你我

是你太傻太慢
还是根本没想过
所以就算无所不谈
还是缺了你我

如果有一天
你突然想起我
请记得
我曾经给过你微笑