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feel like blogging now..as my nick says..im disappointed in some "frens"...or so they claimed they r la.."best frens"..watever la...as i said b4...these r jus meaningless terms lo..u din even fulfill the things a gd fren shld do lo..let alone being best of frenz?! not as if i realli wan u or u all to be my best frenz la...but at least be gentlemen???? so much for being guys lo...im so stunned..y izzit that frenz hu i dun stick arnd much anymore seem to be more concern abt my safety den u all??? i realli dun understand la...the more i think of it..the more angry im lo seriously...n the lame excuses u gave the other time!?!! realli la...LAME!!! im not a 3 yr old kid leh...trying to jus say something related n dai guo everything rite...offering to give me money to take cab home is not an act of being a gentlemen la realli...u think i cant afford cab fees meh..wat the...more disappointed in the one hu im always wif one la..i dunno la..wats wrong lo..i thot u would at least ask la..cos i noe the other one sure heck care one..but u?? jus walk away pretending u din c anything rite..even though i can say that i noe this truth since a veri long time ago le..y izzit tat until now u all still cant prove me wrong??!! i dun understand la..actually also disappointed in another fren la..cos she din even say anything..haiz..i dunno la...got reminded by yl..yes..i did worry that its veri inconvinient for her to go home if they din go..but i think she jus happily remember she got someone to send her home n din bother abt me at all...aiyah...now im thinking..shld i revert back to the original group i was wif during my 1st sem?? i probably will be much happier there...no need to pek chek wif things like these...so stupid..

n yes..i replied to request the date to meet up wif the prof to be on mon instead of tue..until now..still no reply fm the mentor..wats ur problem?!!! u wan to use email as ur medium of contact bet all of us...den jolly well go check ur mail everyday la..n reply!! wth..now is already like 11.02pm on sunday..i request to change to tml lo..n u din reply me??!!! so izzit changed anot?? i msg him le lo..lets c when he reply...i think tml morning..when im still slping ba..tats wat he did the other time..email us the 1st time to ask if we can make it on this date..den after that din email us again to tell us that its confirmed..so i email him n ask..n guess wat...he replied me that morning..when im already on my way to sch..imagine its cancelled n i din get to noe it..wah lau...(ok gd..the other trainee also cant make it on tue..so im not the onli one..)

anyway..i want to apologise to everyone whom i haf speak behind ur backs when im angry wif u or wat..there r no bad intentions involved...

WORDS

一望即逝的烟火
象征着我们
我喜欢的是青色还是红色
你有在乎吗？

因为有依赖
所以最伤心
听说你也难过
但你不曾挽留

你认为
叫我把棉被盖好
就是一种安慰
但你曾想过
你说完掉头就走
却是更残忍的伤害

相信我
忘记也许更容易
其实并没有讨厌
不能怪你的无助
你知道吗？

希望以后再遇见
我们只是陌生人

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曾经以为
一切都不会改变
怎么说散就散
一点预兆都不给

是因为他吗
还是我没搞清楚
你怎会说走就走
连一句话也没留

是我太慢太傻
还是有些事根本不必说
是无所不谈吗
怎么会差了你我

是你太傻太慢
还是根本没想过
所以就算无所不谈
还是缺了你我

如果有一天
你突然想起我
请记得
我曾经给过你微笑