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hmmz..wanna start off everything wif this...ada..im realli sorry for forgetting abt u on sun..it was chaotic that day..pp r telling me these n that..n i forgot that u went somewhere else alone..i noe u were realli angry when i finally c u..im a senstive person rem..haha..hmmz..anyway..ya..read ur blog..im glad u noe it was a misunderstanding..i din purposely leave u somewhere alone at an unfamiliar place..n abt yesterday in sch..yf n i was realli playing wif the both of u since u 2 started the hiding game thing..erm..din realli expect it to turn out to cause unhappiness..but watever it is..hope that we can forget abt all these n remain as best pals k!!! :)

anyway..the garung guni canvessing on sun..erm..i would say..its not bad la..even though we din realli earn alot..but at least..its a chance for us to c our sub com lo..so far..im quite optimistic abt all of them la..they r not that kind hu keeps complaining one lo..u noe..like as if they r prince or princess...cannot carry stuffs kind la..so ok lo..but too bad..it was raining the whole day that day..everyone got drenched..i feel as if i m bathing the whole day lo..n pp r getting sick becos of the stupid rain..haiz..which i think..many wont wan to go again on this sun..which means less pp..which means less money..but still..i wont blame them for not gg la..i mean..cant force them to go also..even though we r not liable for them getting sick..as in..we din ask the sky to rain..but still..i feel bad for"making" them sick la..ya..so..jus hope the number wont realli be so bad la..

hmmz...sometimes i realli pity myself..erm...how shld i say this...i suppose diff pp haf diff expectations of me..which means..if i act in a particular way..one fren may like it but another dun..den soon after...they will start to tell me how they think i haf changed or wat..sadly speaking..im getting immune to hearing it le..even though im still being affected..i mean..i tried to be a some wat perfect fren to all my frenz..i suppose it jus a wishful thinking on my part ba..cos fm wat i c..im definately not..as i said..i may be a perfect fren to one but not to the other..u noe..everyone expect a diff me..n my family r not helping much to it..esp my sis..hu thinks totally diff fm me..always go against wat i wan n wat i like..which adds on the peer pressure which i feel im getting sometimes..maybe u might think i m thinking too much..but if u r me..wif my personality n stuff..u will noe how it feels..its not funny..n im not angry or wat...i jus feel uncertain sometimes lo..i noe i haf tok abt this b4..u might go "y she is talking abt this again?"..erm..n i would reply "cos i dunno hu i shld speak to.." ..did mention something abt this to yf the other day..he jokingly suggested tat i shld go to a counsellor..hahha..tats so dumb lo..i wont la..its not realli anything serious to tat pt ba??

hmmz..toking abt yf..erm..im realli grateful to him yesterday..i would haf exploded if he wasnt there to explain things..seems like he was the onli one hu noes me..but tats limited to yesterday onli la..haha..i guess i was too stressed..alot of explanations to do..its realli veri frustrating to explain to ur fren that wat she think she noe...is realli diff fm wat u r trying to tell her..esp when she is so stubborn n keeps insisting that she noe..but i m glad yf was there to take some of these loads off me..it happened like 2-3 times yesterday lo..n i almost screamed..ya..

anyway...cac stuffs r making me crazy too..maybe i meddle too much into pp's stuffs..i can onli blame myself if one day all of them hated me..i think im realli getting worked up more easily these days..ada thinks im PMS-ing..haha..think its the cac stuffs la..cant blame me also..my 2 other frenz in the clique also in the commitee..n thats the time when i can complain freely n getting angry while the rest of the commitees r not arnd..haha..

haiz..i dunno la...dun feel like toking le...

WORDS

一望即逝的烟火
象征着我们
我喜欢的是青色还是红色
你有在乎吗？

因为有依赖
所以最伤心
听说你也难过
但你不曾挽留

你认为
叫我把棉被盖好
就是一种安慰
但你曾想过
你说完掉头就走
却是更残忍的伤害

相信我
忘记也许更容易
其实并没有讨厌
不能怪你的无助
你知道吗？

希望以后再遇见
我们只是陌生人

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曾经以为
一切都不会改变
怎么说散就散
一点预兆都不给

是因为他吗
还是我没搞清楚
你怎会说走就走
连一句话也没留

是我太慢太傻
还是有些事根本不必说
是无所不谈吗
怎么会差了你我

是你太傻太慢
还是根本没想过
所以就算无所不谈
还是缺了你我

如果有一天
你突然想起我
请记得
我曾经给过你微笑